Authentic Voice vs. Perfectionist Diva – Who “wins”?
So I decided to type the blog today – I am “in a mood” and I just couldn’t get the guts up to put myself on camera and be cheery Why? oh yes that perfectionist demon or diva in my head says I have to keep improving on every vlog. The way I got the first vlog up is a promised myself I would not watch it until it was posted.
So I have this crazy talk in my head
AUTHENTIC VOICE: Amy you have to be you and not being comfortable on camera is part of the beauty of the process that makes you authentic, real and people want that.
PERFECTIONIST DIVA: Amy you look uncomfortable and keep saying um. Why don’t you practice some so you can be effective in your communication.
So which one do I listen to? One makes me run fast and get something out there and the other makes me overthink like a crazy woman. Then I realized we all do that in different areas of our life and maybe you all would have some advice and thoughts on the matter.
I find this also happening right now in my running. I started running in April of this year and consistently ran about 2x/week. My first half marathon was on Aug 1st. I took the week after off … then tried to move into new fancy shoes… hurt myself …blah blah blah.
Result = I have not kicked my butt running more than 3 miles since the race
So now I have this conversation in my head:
AUTHENTIC VOICE: Amy get out there and start over from scratch and you will get your endurance back fast and be right there training for your next race.
PERFECTIONIST DIVA: Amy you used to be able to run 2 hours and now you can’t make it 30 minutes. Don’t walk… you need to keep running. This is a mental game that you are losing.
Right now, I am just trying to be consistently getting out there (guess it’s my middle ground) on both running and blogging. But I love that blogging it bringing out this in me. Something to expand and explore….
So how do you balance the two voices in your head when it comes to putting yourself out there?